My Testimony

  • It is my prayer, that the readers of this blog are blessed, inspired, and motivated.

Psalms 91:14 says “Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name”

On January 8, 2017, I accepted the calling God has placed on my life. I call this my purpose. I was unsure as to what that calling actually was going to be, but I know I was tired of running. I was tired of being tired. I’m 30 years old, grew up in church, I’m a wife, and a mother of 2 little boys. Before January, this is how I defined myself. I have always had a servant heart. Back in August of 2016, I thought I had it all figured out. I was working as a Case Manager, (this is not a job that you will make a lot of money doing), serving others. This job can be mentally, physically demanding, but I loved what I was doing.

Through the years, I lost my sense of self worth, and began to feel used. Sometimes giving your all to something has a way of mentally and physically draining you. My job was taking up 55% of my time, my kids 45% and the other 10% left I gave to my husband. Leaving nothing for myself. I was attending a conference in July of 2016, and my world was turned upside down. I learned that my job, as I knew it, was going away. At the time, I thought that was my purpose in life, to help those who could not help themselves. When you think you have everything figured out, God has a way of showing you that he is the only person in control. After this day, it seemed like everything started going down hill. The enemy started attacking me from every direction!

First, he started on my finances. Suddenly job security was my main focus. I started saving more than I spent. I was applying for jobs like crazy, even went on a few interviews. Then he worked on my health. I kept feeling a lump in my throat which I had to go to the doctor several times and  even an ENT specialist and no one could tell me what was wrong. I was experiencing bad headaches and toothaches which led to me getting my wisdom teeth extracted (which was also an unexpected expensive procedure).  Then lastly, my sanity was being attacked! This cloud of negativity was around me. Everyone I talked to had nothing positive to say. This dampened my spirit, made me feel depressed and alone. Nothing was going right.

I had to travel a lot through my job. This caused me to meet a lot of new people. I knew something was extremely wrong when my customers, whom I checked on monthly, started noticing a change in me. I found myself bursting out crying in random customers homes. I was so unhappy. And every time I got in my car Kirk Franklin’s song was on the radio and all I would hear is “Do you want to be happy?” And this would be followed by Detrick Haddon’s song “Running from your Calling!” It was so obvious that God was trying to tell me something! I later found out this was called conviction!

I finally gave up and did something I hadn’t done in a while, and that was get on my knees and start praying! And I got this strong sense to quit my job! I fought this feeling for so long, but something deep inside me kept saying do it. I was given confirmation on 3 different occasions (in the same day) by 3 different people that do not know each other. Three of my guardians that I met with monthly all told me that God had a plan for my life and wanted me to do what I needed to do and he was going to work it out. So I did it, I gave my 2 weeks notice and my last day was supposed to be Dec 1st.

I dragged that 2 weeks out and 2 weeks turned into a month, then finally I had to say no more. So January 13th was officially my last day. On January 8th, I attended church for the first time in months. And Pastor Sweat preached on “Restoration”! All I heard from that message was God was ready to restore my soul. It seemed like I floated up to the alter after the message and that was it. I gave it all up. Put my full trust in him. Left all my troubles, worries, and frustrations right there on that alter! Let me just tell you, I felt so much lighter! This was not the first time I have given my life to Christ, for real! To top things off, I received a call the next day for an interview that I applied for back in October and was offered the job!

That next week, my Husband who has been my confidante through all of this started going through. (I plan to do a video blog with him and he can tell you his own testimony). But let me just tell you, God placed the conviction on him and a few weeks later, he went up to that same alter and gave it all up as well!

Everything has been falling into place and God has shown us favor. I’m so thankful. I owe him the highest praise. But he has given me a purpose in life, and that is the reason for this blog. I am his messenger.

A New Season of Transparency and Creativity


With a new year approaching fast, we start to reflect on everything we got to accomplish and didn’t get accomplished this year.  Some may have lost more than they gained.  This season can bring on depression, feelings of loneliness and great sadness.  We start to examine our finances, physical appearance, social interactions, and our spirituality.  We begin to make plans to be a better version of ourselves in the New Year.  With all this in mind, lets get to the reason of this blog post.  This post is an introduction to a mini devotional series to prepare you for what God has in store for you.

A few weeks ago, I was studying God’s word, and I heard the words transparency and creativity in my spirit.  I looked up the word transparent.  If used as an adjective it means “allowing light to pass through so that objects behind can be distinctly seen.”  Some synonyms listed are clear, see-through, and translucent.  I want to concentrate on this definition for a moment.  When I first thought of this word, I thought about the image we see in the mirror.  This image is what others around us see as well.  It is our outward appearance to the world.  We can transform this image to fit into different settings such as changing our clothes, makeup, the way we walk or talk, and facial expressions.  Our phones have apps where you can photo shop something you don’t like about your image.  On social media, we can paint this image of this happy, wonderful life by changing our statuses and posting images to give off a certain persona of ourselves.  This is how the world views us.  But if we revisit the definition of transparent…it says allowing light to pass through an object so that behind you can be distinctly seen.  This mirror image that we paint for the world to see, does not fit this definition.  The light projected through the mirror is blocked by your image.  So therefore you aren’t transparent to the world.

Of course, we are transparent to ourselves.  We know our inner thoughts.  We know our inner secrets that no one else knows about us.  But there is someone that can see right through you, even with all the disguises you may throw on outwardly.  He knows you inside and out.  He knows your every move before you even make it.  But, we try so hard to dodge him and pretend he’s not there.  That tugging in your spirit when you know you are doing something wrong.  That’s him tapping you on your shoulder.  He’s looking out for you when no one else is around.  But, you continue to fight the feeling. GOD, I know you see me.

This season of transparency may make you feel uncomfortable at first.  But he wants you and the people around you, to be able to see how only he can bring you out of certain situations. You can look at what all is going on in our government for example.  The male politicians that thought they were untouchable…above the law, their deepest darkest secrets are coming to light.  In order to become transparent, you have to face the inward you that everyone else can not see.  You need to open yourself up to God, and stop trying to pretend he isn’t there.  Make yourself vulnerable to him.  Allow him to fill you up with his word. In order for you to be a better version of yourself, you have to allow the light to pass through you. You have to take down all the walls you have built around yourself. And, most importantly, know that you have a purpose.


I stated previously that we are getting ready to walk into a season of transparency and creativity.  How many of you are just going through the motions everyday.  The work you do is not fulfilling you.  It is a struggle to get up and go to work in the morning because you know that this can’t possibly be life! The reason it is so important to become transparent, God has given you a purpose that he wants you to fulfill.  We all have some type of calling on our lives.  Take me for example, I have struggled for almost an entire year trying to figure out what did God want me to do.  I walked away from a fulltime job and stepped out on faith, but I didn’t have a clue what it truly was he wanted me to do.  I finally just asked him straight up, what is it? He simply replied, just write.  I’m being obedient and doing what I’m supposed to be doing while you are reading this post.  My husband’s natural gift is to cut hair, but while his clients sit in his chair, it is his job to give them a little word just to make their day go by a little better.

You hear about people leaving their 9 to 5 jobs and stepping out on faith everyday.  He wants you to feel fulfilled.  You may have a talent for painting, helping, crafting, or speaking….God wants to bless you.  He wants to use  your gift to spread his Love.  Over the next few weeks, I will be writing a mini devotional series that will help you become the best version of yourself.  It is my prayer that the words that I type, will take root and encourage you to be the person God designed you to be.  I was going to wait until the new year, but it seems to be some urgency that I do this right now.

Your homework for the day is to write down a list of things that you have wanted to do but have not had the means to do it.  Put this list somewhere that you will see it everyday.


What’s Wrong with a Little Compassion?


I get really stressed when I watch the news. So much destruction, death, turmoil, disappointment, and confusion going on in the world.  I have been thinking a lot lately about community outreach and reaching the youth, especially in our African-American communities.  I feel like the direction the government is leading this nation to be more divided.  In times of hardship, the church should be our safe haven.  But, because the church as a whole, has a tarnished reputation due to leaders in the church making bad decisions, serving their own wishes and not the communities we live in, the people have nowhere to turn.  It is time we clean the reputation of the Church and get back to the basics of what church is supposed to be, a house of refuge. Let’s regain our humanity.  The laws of the land may change, but God’s law is unchanging, and that is what we should stand by.  Romans 7:6-“But now we are delivered from the law, that being dead wherein we were held; that we should serve in newness of spirit, and not in the oldness of the letter.”

So many churches are caught up in the religious aspect and patterns they have set for themselves, and forget that the church is actually just a building, the church lives within each and every one of us.  When someone actually decides to become saved, is that life just a body count to join your growing congregation or are you actually checking on that person after they leave service?  One thing is for sure, when you become saved, you do not change overnight.  It is a process.  What are you doing to really help mentor that person?  I feel most people have this perception that as soon as you walk out the church your crazy life, as you know it, will automatically disappear.  A lot of churches get so caught up with the religious aspect and patterns they have set, they forget to inform their newly saved members that once you walk out of the door, there will be even more temptation than you ever experienced before.  1 Corinthians 10:12-13 “Wherefore let him that think he stand take heed lest he fall.  There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to hear it”.

Before something happens in your life physically, it has to happen spiritually.  What type of community support do you have in place for those new members to help them during the week to keep them uplifted? They need to be taught how to pray, how to research and read the word which will lead to a spiritual connection with God (Holy Ghost).  Romans 8:26 “Likewise the Spirit also help our infirmities:  for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself make intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.”  You must give yourself to a life of prayer to the Holy Ghost.

Just like the parable of the Good Samaritan in Luke 10:30-35 between the Levite who were known as the Priests in the Bible, and the Samaritan who are people who claimed to be direct descendants of Abraham, but were not recognized by the Jews.  In the parable, Jesus described how a Levite came across a man who was robbed and wounded.  The Levite looked at him and kept on his merry way down the path as if he was too good to help someone because of who he was.  But a certain Samaritan saw him and stopped and had compassion for the man.  He helped clean the man’s wounds and took him to the nearest inn.  He also gave the man some money to help get back on his feet.  Let us not be like the Levite and think just because we have a little money, education, or title, we are too good to help those in need.

I feel like SOME churches, and let me stress the SOME…because not all churches are like this, have lost touch with reality, lost their humanity, lost their compassion and purpose.  It is not about who has the most members, drive the fanciest cars, has the biggest church or wears the nicest clothes.  Jesus called this the den of thieves in Matthew 21:13.  Your actions speak to the people.  The Church is not going to save your soul, it is only a building.  It is the people inside that church that reflect the body of Christ as a whole.  What are you doing in your communities that shows the people you genuinely care?  Are you acting like the Levite or the Samaritan?

The people are what make the church.  It is time we clean up the reputation of the church.  The church dwells within each of us.  Time for us to become good Samaritans and help those that are lost and can’t see their way.  Let’s be the house of refuge that God intended us to be.  Let’s start providing the tools needed for our people to survive.  Our people are crying out for help. Let’s start getting uncomfortable and changing outdated patterns that do not matter.  It starts by being a little more compassionate for your fellow-man.

“But meat commended us not to God: for neither if we eat, are we the better; neither, if we eat not, are we the worse.  But take heed lest by any means this liberty of yours become a stumbling block to them that are weak…but when ye sin so against the brethren, and wound their weak conscience, ye sin against Christ” –1Corinthians 8:8-9,12

Hey Black Child do you know who I am?

As I was thinking about how I wanted to word this post, I thought about the video that has been circulating on the Internet with a cute little girl reciting Maya Angelou’s Poem “Hey Black Child.”  A link this video:  Click here.

The more I read, study, and apply the word to my life, I found myself asking the question “Who am I?”  Before I would describe myself as a wife, mother of 2 handsome boys, beautiful, and intelligent. As God began to open my spiritual eyes, this question took on an entirely different meaning. His response was simply, “I am!”  Every time I pray, I ask God to use me however he sees fit, because I am his willing vessel.  Once you have a true encounter with God, you change.  You don’t want to go back to that “struggle” lifestyle that you had before.  The more I learn, the more my faith has grown.

Hebrews 11:1 “Faith is assurance of things hoped for”

When you go back and study the chosen people of God, the Israelites, time and time again you will see how they fell short of his glory by turning their backs on God.  Allowing others to influence them and eventually they forget who they are.  This made me want a deeper understanding of who I really am.  If you read the book of Deuteronomy chapters 27-29.  God made it very clear of his expectations of his people.  Because we are a rebellious people, we have brought generational cursing on ourselves.  God never intended for his people to be weak-minded.  He intended for us to be leaders and not followers.

Deuteronomy 28:9-10 “The Lord shall establish thee a holy people unto himself, as he hath sworn unto thee, if thou shalt keep the commandments of the Lord thy God, and walk in his ways,  ALL PEOPLE OF THE EARTH SHALL SEE THAT THOU ART CALLED BY THE NAME OF THE LORD, AND THEY SHALL BE AFRAID OF THEE.”

God lives within us, so when he says I am, we have all the power we need within us to make mountains move.  Before my spiritual eyes were awakened, I thought about mountains as real, physical, rocky mountains literally.  But, he means we have the power to speak to any weapon that is formed against us and tell IT SHALL NOT PROSPER.  Romans 8:31 “If God is for us, who can ever be against us?”  He has given us all power and authority over this Earth.  If you think about it, If everyone had this mentality, and we all ban together, think of how powerful we would be.  All these materialistic things we are chasing after, does not matter.  You will not be able to take any of that with you when you die, so why are we making those our idols?  Why are we so envious of what others have?  God has already promised us if we seek him first that he will supply our every need and he will give us the desires of our heart.  Matthew 6:33 “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”  So why are you still struggling?  That unhappy feeling that you have, that is God wanting to fill you up with his power.  Rise up oh Holy Nation, Rise up because it is time.

We have the power to speak life over any dead situation.  We have the power to open doors that weren’t even there to open. Why?? Because 1 John 4:4 tells us “Greater is he that is in you, than he is in the world!”  Knowledge is power.  Time to fall on our face and get in his word because we are running out of time.  “Wherefore, as I live, saith the Lord God; Surely, because thou hast defiled my sactuary with all thy detestable things, and with all thine abominations, therefore will I also diminish thee, neither shall mine eye spare, neither will I have any pity”  -Ezekiel 5:11

So, hey black child, do you know do you really, really know… “Who am I?”

I am set above all other nations.   I am Royalty.  I am a queen in God’s kingdom.  I am a part of a holy nation.  I am starting a legacy.  I am a generational curse breaker.  I am liberated.  I am powerful.  I am unshaken.  I am living on God’s promises.  I am born again.  I am set free.  I am brand new.  I am the God that dwells within me.  I am….


Less is more Blessed

A couple of weeks ago, my daily devotional was Hebrews 7:28 “For the law makes men high priests which have infirmity, but the word of the oath which was since the law, makes the son, who is consecrated forever more .” When I broke out my dictionary and looked up the word infirmity, it means “physical or mental weakness”.    Some synonyms for infirmity are illness, ailment, disease, disorder, sickness, affliction, complaint, indisposition, frailty, and weakness.  So basically this verse is saying God intends for his high priests to be someone with a physical or mental weakness…in other words, someone who is not perfect. This made me think of how some Christians become born again, but completely forget about their past mistakes.  Those mistakes are your testimony about how far God has brought you.  Have you ever heard the phrase “never forget where you come from?”

 When I read my devotionals I try to go back and read the entire chapter to get a complete understanding of what I am reading.  This brought me to the verse Hebrews 7:7,

“And without contradiction, the less is blessed of the better”

I had to write this verse down.  It is such a powerful verse when you think about it.  In other words, if you are humble and not greedy, you will be blessed more.  Today’s society is based off of power, greed, fame, pride…Everybody wants to be somebody. I thought about the show Greenleaf,  and how the church is portrayed as Pastors getting rich off their congregation being fake ministers trying to see who can build the biggest church and have the biggest congregation, but behind the scenes they are liars, fornicators, and lusting after worldly things.  This is why so many are lost because the church has been made a big joke.  It is assumed that you are perfect once you become a Christian.  So many are afraid of being themselves in fear of being judged and condemned by the “perfect Christians”.  It’s time that we clean house with the fake.  God is going to expose those and raise up a generation that knows the truth…this truth is his unchanging Word! The less will be blessed….in other words the last shall be first and the first shall be last.  All these TV ministers and big churches that are profiting off of their people for their own selfish reasons will be exposed.

Kirk Franklin has a song out that is called “Give Me”  and one of the verses states,

No more miracle water, that comes from money and fame.  Everybody got a title, but do you know your name.  If we humble ourselves people, fall on our face, and ask God everything in me that’s not right, Lord take it away.”

We are the chosen generation and it is time that we wake up.  God is using people that have a story to tell…those that are not perfect.  He’s using people that others can relate to.  The true meaning of “Come as you are” is to be transparent.  Tell your story.  Show those that are lost how far God has brought you.  If you were a drug addict, tell your story. If you used to be promiscuous, tell your story.  Your testimony is the most powerful tool that you have.  You don’t have to be ministers, you only have to be yourself…your true self.  I challenge you to tell someone your story, and how far God has brought you out.  He said in Matthew 6:33 “But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you”.  Psalms 37:4 “Delight thyself in the Lord, and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart”.  There is no need to follow our own selfish desires because he has already promised to give us the desires of our heart if we seek him first.


1 Peter 2:1-2

“Wherefore laying aside all malice, and all guile, and hypocrisies, and envies, and all evil speaking, As newborn babes, desire the sincere milk of the word, that ye may grow thereby.”

“But God is raising up men who really get it.  We got the same haircuts, same clothes, but trust me baby girl something’s different”.—  Lyrics from Royalty by Mali Music

I recently watched the movie Birth of a Nation, and it made me think about how my people, and by my people I’m talking about the African American community, are lost.  In the movie, the slave masters had the young black preacher go around quoting the verse 1 Peter 2:18 “Servants, be subject to your masters with all fear; not only to the good and gentle, but also to the forward.”  (Froward means habitually disposed to disobedience and opposition according to Webster’s Dictionary).  This one scripture was used to obscure our Black Ancestors’ thinking forcing them to submit.  The preacher was one of few slaves that was fortunate to be able to read back in those days.  We all know knowledge is power.  It’s no secret that they have tried to keep our people oppressed through slavery, lynching, mass incarceration, blinding us from realizing who we are.

 Now after studying 1 Peter 2nd chapter in its entirety, it takes on a totally different meaning.  The scripture goes on to say in the next verse “For this is thankworthy, if a man for conscience toward God endure grief, suffering wrongfully.”  Throughout the Bible there are different verses, such as this one that states that God’s people will have to suffer in this lifetime because of who we are.  As the saying goes, “If you don’t have any haters, you must not be doing something right.”  Once you decide to live in your purpose, the enemy will try to test you and come at you from every direction.  1 Peter 2:15-16 states, “For so is the will of God, that with well doing ye may put to silence the ignorance of foolish men.  As free, and not using your liberty for a cloak of maliciousness; but as the servants of God.”  Those slave owners used the word of God for their own malicious acts.  Racism has been the background to our loosing sense of self.  Who are we?  Where do we come from?  Generation after generation of being lost, breaking down our black men, kidnapping our women and children, killing each other, racial profiling/targeting black men and women, and breaking up our black families, when will we wake up?  1 Peter 2:25 says “For ye were as sheep going astray; but are now returned unto the Shepard and Bishop of your souls.”  When I read this verse, I think about how God promised the Israelites the promise land and had Moses lead his people out of Egypt, but because his people bickered and complained, they were lost, wandering in the wilderness for 40 years.  Fast forward to today…Our people are still lost.  Still being blinded by the evil agenda that was set forth for our people hundreds of years ago.  An agenda that has clouded the minds of our people and passed from one generation to the next.  Who are we?

Before I go on, I want to point out that some of our people are claiming to be “woke” or “conscience” to the truth.  I’m glad our generation is starting to research and figure out who they are, and where they come from.  But I’m tired of hearing that Jesus is the “white man’s God.”  The Jesus Christ that I have come to know and love is VERY real!  How can you believe in God but not his son?  There is only one way to God and that is through his son.  The Bible warns us and tells us to beware of false prophets.  These so called prophets are those that twist God’s word to spread their own agendas.  All the great prophets of the Bible have told a story of God sending his only son to save ALL men.  Emanuel, Son of Man, Son of God, JESUS….There is power in that name.  The only agenda should be God’s unchanging word.

With that being said, God is calling his people.  All the different denominations, and religions, do not matter.  God is calling for 1 nation, 1 people, no matter what race or creed you belong to.  1 Peter 2: 5-6 “Ye also, as lively stones, are built up a spiritual sacrifices, acceptable to God by Jesus Christ.  Wherefore also, it is contained in the scripture, Behold, I lay in Sion a chief corner stone, elect, precious, and he that believeth on him, shall not be confounded.”  The scripture also says in Philippians 2:10 “That at the name of Jesus, Every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess.”

It is time our people realized their full potential.  Time for us to raise up 1 true nation of God.  1 Peter 2:9 “But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should show darkness into his marvelous light.”  the time is now.  Time to be uncomfortable with the word.  We are the truth tellers, the messengers, the Royal Priesthood God is calling for.  Rise up my people.  Wake up my people.  WE are the chosen generation.  We are the Anomaly!

Time to get uncomfortable with the word.  This may cause you to lose friends, and family may turn their backs on you…but they will want some of what you have.  We are the outcasts.  The generation that dares to be different.  The people that doesn’t mind telling the truth.  Remember, only God can judge us.  Remember at the end of the battle, we win.  Get ready to sacrifice to reap your eternal reward.  Our mission is bigger than ourselves.  WE are GOD’S ARMY.  Either join or perish.  The choice is yours.