Hey Black Child do you know who I am?

As I was thinking about how I wanted to word this post, I thought about the video that has been circulating on the Internet with a cute little girl reciting Maya Angelou’s Poem “Hey Black Child.”  A link this video:  Click here.

The more I read, study, and apply the word to my life, I found myself asking the question “Who am I?”  Before I would describe myself as a wife, mother of 2 handsome boys, beautiful, and intelligent. As God began to open my spiritual eyes, this question took on an entirely different meaning. His response was simply, “I am!”  Every time I pray, I ask God to use me however he sees fit, because I am his willing vessel.  Once you have a true encounter with God, you change.  You don’t want to go back to that “struggle” lifestyle that you had before.  The more I learn, the more my faith has grown.

Hebrews 11:1 “Faith is assurance of things hoped for”

When you go back and study the chosen people of God, the Israelites, time and time again you will see how they fell short of his glory by turning their backs on God.  Allowing others to influence them and eventually they forget who they are.  This made me want a deeper understanding of who I really am.  If you read the book of Deuteronomy chapters 27-29.  God made it very clear of his expectations of his people.  Because we are a rebellious people, we have brought generational cursing on ourselves.  God never intended for his people to be weak-minded.  He intended for us to be leaders and not followers.

Deuteronomy 28:9-10 “The Lord shall establish thee a holy people unto himself, as he hath sworn unto thee, if thou shalt keep the commandments of the Lord thy God, and walk in his ways,  ALL PEOPLE OF THE EARTH SHALL SEE THAT THOU ART CALLED BY THE NAME OF THE LORD, AND THEY SHALL BE AFRAID OF THEE.”

God lives within us, so when he says I am, we have all the power we need within us to make mountains move.  Before my spiritual eyes were awakened, I thought about mountains as real, physical, rocky mountains literally.  But, he means we have the power to speak to any weapon that is formed against us and tell IT SHALL NOT PROSPER.  Romans 8:31 “If God is for us, who can ever be against us?”  He has given us all power and authority over this Earth.  If you think about it, If everyone had this mentality, and we all ban together, think of how powerful we would be.  All these materialistic things we are chasing after, does not matter.  You will not be able to take any of that with you when you die, so why are we making those our idols?  Why are we so envious of what others have?  God has already promised us if we seek him first that he will supply our every need and he will give us the desires of our heart.  Matthew 6:33 “But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”  So why are you still struggling?  That unhappy feeling that you have, that is God wanting to fill you up with his power.  Rise up oh Holy Nation, Rise up because it is time.

We have the power to speak life over any dead situation.  We have the power to open doors that weren’t even there to open. Why?? Because 1 John 4:4 tells us “Greater is he that is in you, than he is in the world!”  Knowledge is power.  Time to fall on our face and get in his word because we are running out of time.  “Wherefore, as I live, saith the Lord God; Surely, because thou hast defiled my sactuary with all thy detestable things, and with all thine abominations, therefore will I also diminish thee, neither shall mine eye spare, neither will I have any pity”  -Ezekiel 5:11

So, hey black child, do you know do you really, really know… “Who am I?”

I am set above all other nations.   I am Royalty.  I am a queen in God’s kingdom.  I am a part of a holy nation.  I am starting a legacy.  I am a generational curse breaker.  I am liberated.  I am powerful.  I am unshaken.  I am living on God’s promises.  I am born again.  I am set free.  I am brand new.  I am the God that dwells within me.  I am….

WAKE UP!!

My Testimony

  • It is my prayer, that the readers of this blog are blessed, inspired, and motivated.

Psalms 91:14 says “Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name”

On January 8, 2017, I accepted the calling God has placed on my life. I call this my purpose. I was unsure as to what that calling actually was going to be, but I know I was tired of running. I was tired of being tired. I’m 30 years old, grew up in church, I’m a wife, and a mother of 2 little boys. Before January, this is how I defined myself. I have always had a servant heart. Back in August of 2016, I thought I had it all figured out. I was working as a Case Manager, (this is not a job that you will make a lot of money doing), serving others. This job can be mentally, physically demanding, but I loved what I was doing.

Through the years, I lost my sense of self worth, and began to feel used. Sometimes giving your all to something has a way of mentally and physically draining you. My job was taking up 55% of my time, my kids 45% and the other 10% left I gave to my husband. Leaving nothing for myself. I was attending a conference in July of 2016, and my world was turned upside down. I learned that my job, as I knew it, was going away. At the time, I thought that was my purpose in life, to help those who could not help themselves. When you think you have everything figured out, God has a way of showing you that he is the only person in control. After this day, it seemed like everything started going down hill. The enemy started attacking me from every direction!

First, he started on my finances. Suddenly job security was my main focus. I started saving more than I spent. I was applying for jobs like crazy, even went on a few interviews. Then he worked on my health. I kept feeling a lump in my throat which I had to go to the doctor several times and  even an ENT specialist and no one could tell me what was wrong. I was experiencing bad headaches and toothaches which led to me getting my wisdom teeth extracted (which was also an unexpected expensive procedure).  Then lastly, my sanity was being attacked! This cloud of negativity was around me. Everyone I talked to had nothing positive to say. This dampened my spirit, made me feel depressed and alone. Nothing was going right.

I had to travel a lot through my job. This caused me to meet a lot of new people. I knew something was extremely wrong when my customers, whom I checked on monthly, started noticing a change in me. I found myself bursting out crying in random customers homes. I was so unhappy. And every time I got in my car Kirk Franklin’s song was on the radio and all I would hear is “Do you want to be happy?” And this would be followed by Detrick Haddon’s song “Running from your Calling!” It was so obvious that God was trying to tell me something! I later found out this was called conviction!

I finally gave up and did something I hadn’t done in a while, and that was get on my knees and start praying! And I got this strong sense to quit my job! I fought this feeling for so long, but something deep inside me kept saying do it. I was given confirmation on 3 different occasions (in the same day) by 3 different people that do not know each other. Three of my guardians that I met with monthly all told me that God had a plan for my life and wanted me to do what I needed to do and he was going to work it out. So I did it, I gave my 2 weeks notice and my last day was supposed to be Dec 1st.

I dragged that 2 weeks out and 2 weeks turned into a month, then finally I had to say no more. So January 13th was officially my last day. On January 8th, I attended church for the first time in months. And Pastor Sweat preached on “Restoration”! All I heard from that message was God was ready to restore my soul. It seemed like I floated up to the alter after the message and that was it. I gave it all up. Put my full trust in him. Left all my troubles, worries, and frustrations right there on that alter! Let me just tell you, I felt so much lighter! This was not the first time I have given my life to Christ, for real! To top things off, I received a call the next day for an interview that I applied for back in October and was offered the job!

That next week, my Husband who has been my confidante through all of this started going through. (I plan to do a video blog with him and he can tell you his own testimony). But let me just tell you, God placed the conviction on him and a few weeks later, he went up to that same alter and gave it all up as well!

Everything has been falling into place and God has shown us favor. I’m so thankful. I owe him the highest praise. But he has given me a purpose in life, and that is the reason for this blog. I am his messenger.